Thursday, November 30, 2006

Stressed. But there's so much more to it.

It wasn't gonna be a good day. Went into the general paper exam with a throbbing headache like a drum, first thing in the morning. Ain't a smart thing to do, sleeping so darn late before exam. Hell, here's the consequence. Well, thank high heaven, the paper was okay, except the bloody ridiculous essays, mumbling goodness for the graph. But in the end, paper completed right on time. Weew.
Decisions. Seem to be making the wrong ones quite frequent. Oh well. But thank God, i have something called prayer. A massively neglected resource for making right decisions. Its a simple matter of seeking insight from God. No, it's not a lazy mind's desperate resort to magic, not at all. Just a way of tapping into a wisdom way better than mine. So, prayer is really a sensible thing to do. Since decisions are made on a daily basis, what are you waiting for?

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Your baby.

When he is quiet, He's listening to you.

When he is not arguing, He realizes he's wrong.

When he says, "I'm fine" after a few minutes, he means it.

When he stares at you, he thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world.

When you're laying your head on his chest, he has the world.

When he calls you everyday, you know he cares.

When he say he loves you, he means it.

When he says he can't live without you, he's with you forever.

When he says, "I miss you", he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.

But best of all, when you're in his arms...there's nothing that could ever be better.

Laine, it is you.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Post-exam scribble...

A big shadow has loomed over me in the form of Maths 2. Its eerie fingers of trigonometry, statistics and probability reaches out at catches me, dragging me down to the unfathomable abyss called "pass-year questions". I follow it without question with hope of escaping a particular pursuer constantly hot on my trail called "Failing Maths 2". I tremble and meekly follow that shadow that has a worthy end called "the day after tomorrow". Hehe. Yeah, its on tuesday. Nah, the situation ain't as bad as described above, but it's close to it. And i'm working on it because my dad screwed me for not studying the whole day. Talk about forced motivation huh. So much for it. Yeah, i finished that pass-year workbook. But then, what have i gain, other than this constantly nagging pain of a headache? Crap. Hi Mr. Panadol. May i ask you a question? How many dolls do you have in your pan now? That was emal, uh no, lame. Failed humour dose, sorry. But i did gain something else. I know now what those numbers mean. You're supposed to press the calculator until a logical answer pops out. Hehe. Okay i admit, i'm not okay, i promise. Hey, nice song by My Chemical Romance. I never liked chemistry, so i must listen to them before chemistry paper, haha. If you get what i mean. Lol.

But not all is doom and gloom. I had a pleasant surprise by FlyFM, whch resulted in me and my baby getting to go on a dream date or something like that. Pretty cool actually. But there's a price to pay. Became the laughing stock of those who caught it on air. But it was a friggin good laugh, though i was quite embarassed Lol. The whole thing was Or whatever you call it.

Thank you for that present, sister. It was awesome.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

3rd Anniversary.

Today marks our 3rd anniversary. 3rd! Time flies...i didn't forget k...and i'll never will. And you know it. so far, the journey has been breathtaking, and its nice to know that is still a long way to go from here. Worried for the ending? Never. Wanting it to last? Forever. People can say what they want. but who's listening, right? Its not like we dish shit about it. What matters most is the individual. It is once said that separation makes the heart grow fonder, or something like that. It's true. This heart longs for you, the unquenchable burning desire within. Just remember this moment. This time. When you're reading this, or each time u read this, you will remember,oh so gently, the times spent together and the love showered upon you. I don't ask much in return. Just you. And i'm looking forward for the many beautiful moments that are still to come. And i thank God for you. Yes, its not all a bed of roses, but i won't give up, and i know, neither will you. We will go through it together, hand in hand.

i love you so much, baby Laine.

First post. STPM.

Stpm. ( hey its STePheM! ). Lol . Nah it stands for Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia (winces at the thought of it...). All Form Sixers are condemned to take it. a nonsense exam, enough said.but then on the other hand, no words can do sufficient justice to it. After all, its the 3rd hardest exam inthe world, i was told. Didn't make the predicament any better though. But taking the positives, i'm halfway through it.Yay. But hell, the worst is yet to come. The killer papers, Physics and Chemistry 2, are 2 unholy weeks from now. God help me, this poor soul of a student. Would i boil those ridiculously thick revision books and mix it in chicken soup (my fav) and then guzzle it down with hope that everything in those books will be stored in my already saturated brain? I certainly hope i won't have to that, though utter stupiditiy calls every now and then. Sigh....

But the truth is simple actually. Do the best you can, and take comfort that God will take it from there. Just hand over the reins to Someone you can surely count on. Now, isn't that nice to know? ;)

Dedicted to all suckers (including me) sitting for STPM this year. I hope that u all will find the answer for every question u attempt n this exam (something not exactly possible, but still...). And may you all do well, and know that nothing is Impossible.